i was always fascinated with music box. when i feel worn out at the end of the day...and when im depressed, id listen to my music box over and over again until i fell asleep in peace...
but this isnt about my divine attachment to my music box. this is about how i feel, sometimes, that my life resembles a music box. the same sad melody plays over and over. i fall, get my hopes up, then get crushed. fall again, become hopeful, and crushed again. then again.
its scary...but a bit funny too.
scary coz i dont want my life to endlessly play the same sad song...scary coz i dont want to look back on my journal ten years from now and read the same theme, the same hurts, and the same story, only with different characters...
but it is funny. my bestfriend and i would perpetually talk about this and would relentlessly ask ourselves when our topic would change. we never fail to talk about the non-existence of our lovelife in every conversations we've had. we could gab about it for the whole day...and when its time to go our separate homes it still feels like a lot has been said. we've probably exhausted all the possible aspects of our unattached existence. and then recently we just stopped asking when our subject would morph into...well, you know. *sigh* i guess we just figured its stupid to ask about something we both are clueless about...
there's this song by the carpenters...'goodbye to love'...i can soOo relate..
I'll say goodbye to love
No one ever cared if i should live or die
Time and time again the chance for love has passed me by
And all i know of love is how to live without it
I just can't seem to find it
So i've made my mind up
I must live my life alone
And though it's not the easy way
I guess i've always known
I'd say goodbye to love
There are no tomorrows for this heart of mine
Surely time will lose these bitter memories
And i'll find that there is someone to believe in
And to live for something i could live for
All the years of useless search
Have finally reached an end
Loneliness and empty days will be my only friend
From this day love is forgotten
I'll go on as best i can
What lies in the future is a mystery to us all
No one can predict the wheel of fortune as it falls
There may come a time when i will see that i've been wrong
But for now this is my song
And it's goodbye to love
I'll say goodbye to love
i am feeling your pain right now. i just had one of the most major heartbreaks of my life occur. but i guess i am becoming content again. but i relate to what you are feeling, when is mr. right going to stop being mr. no?? ;)
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How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...