私はホンさんをhugしたいけど、彼は私のことが好きじゃないから。。。彼は私をhugしたら、ちょう恥ずかしくなちゃった!i just realized i left almost in the blink of an eye running. 超バカ!大バカ!バカto the nth power. バカすぎました (if there's even such a term). im soOo baka i should vanish from the face of the earth.
i was serious when i said i will never be sad on the 29th only because itll be the last time ill ever see him. but why did i have to be this way today? before we hugged i couldnt even understand what he was saying...except i said さようなら、and i was just replying うん to whatever he was saying...or did i say うん? and then after sort of hugging i just left too fast that i even lost my densha kippu. *sigh* i will never sign online on msn forever. why am i like this? I Dont Like Him Anymore. No Need To Be Like This. aaargh. but Why?
yuri was telling me to hug him because its the last time but im like, "no yuri i cant and i wont." besides he only hugs his ippai girl friends, and im not really a friend so i shouldnt. so when he talked to me, i panicked. and i was looking at okaasan and yuri to save me...i dont know maybe butt in..but they just stared.
but i didnt really left running because i was embarassed.
i left as fast as i could because i was scared i'd cry right in front of him. and thats just too embarassing. then i realized it must have also been embarassing leaving like that.
i was making little crazy sounds on the way home...huuuuuuuuuuuu.
さっき私はjealousした。彼はいっぱいきれいな女の子をhugしたから。but its not like i have the right to be jealous. 彼女じゃない。im not even his いちばんいい友達。
im rambling again.
でもhugしてもらってうれしくなったよ。^^
for all i know, baka kaya nya pala hinug sila nung una para may reason din sya na ihug ako diba?...kase lahat naman sila lumapit sa kanya, e ako...sya lapit sakin. but thats too far off, isnt that?
(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...