Yeah I have to hate them some time. Because by wanting so much to be liked back by them, and by blaming myself for not getting that wish and for dwelling on hanging issues for the longest time, I tend to forget that my life isnt just about that.
I tend to forget that I should be taking out mcdo burgers for hungry street kids...of course youll rarely find that here in Japan, but in the Philippines there are many of them. I tend to forget that I should take learning sign language seriously so I could talk to deaf-mute kids who have no one else to talk to but their nannies or their family and other deaf-mute like them. I tend to forget those quiet moments with God. I tend to forget praying...and more important than that, I tend to forget there are many people in need that I should pray for.
I tend to forget that girl who dreams of building an orphanage for abandoned children, or anything that does volunteering...it cant change the world...it cant erase poverty, and those dark things but it eases the pain...makes days a little more bearable. I tend to forget that it doesn't matter if im single forever...I mean, sure I would sometimes wonder what its like to be loved back...but there are more serious problems in the world than that. And me being healthy, educated, and all...I should do whatever I could to help ease those problems.
I tend to forget that my life is not just about my happiness...because to say that my own happiness should be the goal of my life is the answer of a selfish child. And im sure mama didn't endure nine months of carrying me in her womb and going through those sleepless nights when im being a bitchy baby and wont stop crying (assuming all babies went through that), just to see me grown up to be selfish and ungrateful.
I don't really have to be suffering from cancer or leukemia and have my days numbered for me to realize how precious life is and how I should not waste it from senseless wonderings, pointless bickerings inside my head, and energy-sapping bitterness.
I will make better use of my time from now on. ^^
(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...