my bible reading for these past few days were like "i prayed for this...and the Lord has granted me what i asked of Him.", "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. for everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.", "To the Lord, I cry aloud, and he answers me from his holy hill."
This faith was only passed on to me...i was never asked if i wanted to be Christian...i was never asked if i wanted to hear mass, i just grew up doing it. when i was little, i remember sleeping during mass and when my sister and i would have petty fights the moment we got home, papa would ask me and my sister what the homily was all about and what we learned from it...and i'd be cracking my brain with whatever i heard during times while im awake. and when we were kids, our punishment whenever we do anything wrong, is to kneel in front of our altar until we realize what we should be sorry about. and just recently, before i got here, on one of our conversations on memory lane at home, i was told that when i was very little, maybe around 3-6 years old, when its time for communion, i would always always whisper to them "malapit na tayo uwi" (its almost time to go home). my 3-6 year-old mind was probably wondering why masses seem to take forever...
this faith was only passed on to me...but now that i'm all grown up, i am grateful i have this faith. it has made me go through painful and difficult times, wounded but stronger each time. God has always been good to me. always giving me what i need, when i needed them. not all of my prayers were answered, but most were answered right whne i least expect it.
i would like to think from the verses above, that God was bugging me to ask Him about m.c...
they say that God knows your needs even before you conceived of them, but oftentimes, God wants to hear it straight from you...that you wanted it.
but i dont want to ask Him.
i never fail to mention m.c. to Him but i never asked Him to pull some strings to make m.c. like me. Because what if He heard me and it happens? if it does, im scared i wouldnt know how to handle it. now im officially weird, arent i? here i am, going through a long-term headache and heartsickness because someone i like doesnt seem to like me back, and yet the thought/possibility of him liking me back scares me either. i dont know. it scares me to picture myself with him. -_-
I would always tell God to give me someone who will care for me, someone who will make sure i am okay, someone who will love me..at least as much as my heart could love him.., and i would add that if that someone isn't the m.c. who is unknowingly hurting me now, i hope God makes me more patient and faithful until the right someone comes...
i know how you feel..ive asked Him like twice or thrice already about this girl i that i liked before.. i even asked Him that i have the chance to talk to her since we havent known each other..you know what, im not telling you it works- im not telling you it doesnt either..but He really has a plan for us..sometimes we might find it a bit strange or bizaare but it always ends up for our own good..
ill just give you a bit of advice: dont stop praying..who knows, one day it could happen..
btw, thanks for dropping by earlier =)..have a nice weekend
well thanx for dropping by too...your blog was like "the busiest blog" i've read so far...comments here and there, kaya aliw that you had the time to drop by mine...^_^. ja ne (jap expression)...
~~falling star
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How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...