i dont usually take credit in some kind of nice things i do, coz most of the time i do them out of lack of control for my sometime's-overflowing-enthusiasm in convincing people that they should try this and that coz i think itll be fab, blahblah...^_^
but well, today i just cant help being happy for my "being-overly-eager" contagious disease and for a "pangungulit" well done. its just that a friend e-mailed me today and told me, she got accepted in the same scholarship as i do. for a minute there, it made me a bit sad coz it actually means that my time here is almost over because they're already preparing the paper's of the person who'll be taking after my shoes here. huhuhuhuhu. (time, could you please move a bit slower?! just a little slower please..coz i kind of want to spend longer time with my friends, here you know...youre moving toOo fast, i cant keep up..just a tiny tiny bit slower please). but on second thought, i also have a reason to be happy for, coz it was their first time with me to invite someone from my university..the fact that they're inviting another one from UP means that somehow, i've behaved well and they liked my presence here. ^_^. and it was partly my non-stop eagerness in convincing her to apply for the scholarship, that she actually have this possible chance to meet great people and have totally worth-it experiences like i do now. and it wasnt just her, i have also coerced patty to apply for this scholarship with me, and last year she spent six great months at singapore (not to mention that part of those six months, she spent with drop-dead [am i remembering it right?] handsome sometimes-top-naked-[?]-after-shower dormate just around the corner [err..am not sure if i really heard that from you, patty tips...maybe you told me that story in my dream]...and that almost-sex-and-the-city day when you shared the same bus with these tons of young men looking absolutely hot in those all white uniforms with the sailor hats and the blue trimmings on their shirts). ^_^
my sometimes infectious over-eagerness sometimes results in good things after all. didnt i just merit a pat on my back? ^_^ not that i really deserve any credit, but somehow its nice to know that in my itsy-bitsy way, i have contributed to my friend's happiness...at least i can die saying i've made a difference in someone's life...and well, sometimes i have to learn to praise myself too..being too hard on myself, wont do my oftentimes broken wings (mine's broken too ate bw -_-) any good.
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wow! im so happy for u!! sana nga tanggapin ng nihondaigaku ung app form ko! sana tanggapin nila! shempre im so thankful sau kc ur d one who actually informed, invited and encouraged me to apply for this! nax! onga! ako din cguro, if ever na makarating ako jan, il bring praise and worship songs to uplift my spirit! iba kc tlga pag c lord ang kumikilos! ^_^ im so proud of u KL!!! sna makarating din tlga ko jan! and hope my classes are will be all in english! i don't think i can do it if they're gonna be in nihongo.hay! r0ckingchair@yahoo.com email add ko! send me ur pix ha! ung 0 sa r0cking, it's a zero not a letter o. hehe.! im so excited na nga! im gonna apply for a passport today! balitaan mo uli ako ha! God bless! dont forget to send me ur pix!!! Gudluck sa crushie mong exchange student din!! always have fun!!! God bless!!!
---rein. wednesday.23.2005
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(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...