my single's awareness day (S.A.D.)...
well it was soOo much better than how i predicted it would be. ^_^
...because i took the day off and didnt go to my japanese class! but note: im not being sarcastic. it wasnt because i was avoiding to see couples on that day that i decided to rest the day away. in fact, i didnt rest at all.
after breakfast, i was in my room all morning preparing for my meeting with my seminar professor that afternoon. im supposed to think of a topic and do the outline of the paper/presentation that he was requiring me to finish by the end of next term, before i go back home. if i am the whiner falling star, that i usually am, i'd have thought of it as torture because it is currently spring vacation in nihon university (college of econ) now but here i am, working on a paper...not only that, i have to meet him once in two weeks to update him with my paper's progress.
when i was to leave the dorm to meet him at econ building, i glanced at my usually empty mailbox to find that i received greeting cards from home! ^_^ that alone totally made my day. while walking to the trainstation, i remember silently screaming waaaaaaaaaaahhhh (you know the kind of scream where you actually hear yourself, but not that loud for others to think youre crazy?) for no less than fifteen times because i just couldnt believe i got cards from my friends. waaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! i guess, when you live far from home, anything you see in your mailbox that's stamped "from the philippines" gives you maximum utility. ^_^
(the cards...one from eunie dearie, one from econ barkada..^_^)
so even when my meeting with my prof was thisclose to being annoying...im on happy-mode and i just cant be swayed. well my professor was supposed to meet me at this certain time but he made me come back again for one and a half hour because he was having a meeting with someone else. he suggested i stay at the library on the next building while waiting. it would have been a fab time coz i love books, except that me and the library are in tokyo which follows that the books there are in nihongo with kanji characters i cant even recognize. there are english books there, for sure, but i just dont know where they were...and i wasnt really interested because i asked before and i was told the library doesnt have english novels. so i spent the whole hour and a half cutting the split ends of my hair with my bare hands while reveiwing my japanese vocabulary in between. it was fun though. ^_^
after the meeting, i went to meet wenwen at the hair salon coz she was getting a haircut. her haircut cost her 8 thousand something yen while it only cost me one and a half hour, and tired hands to get rid of my split ends ^_^. and i get to eat most of the chocolates wenwen brought, which were really meant for the guys of our japanese department...because like i said before, its women who give chocolates on heart's day here...but since the guys were nowhere in sight, i get to it it. ^_^
and to end my S.A.Day, after dinner, i went out for an ice cream with my equally dateless, more-than-just-friday-movie-night buddies (except for verena who's the only one who has an existing lovelife among us..but she insists to be part of our dateless club)...^_*.
i did wish to even just see M.C. that day, coz i havent seen him for ages...but well, you cant have everything right? i was able to greet him belated happy valentines through msn on the 15th though. he said "the same to you".
b-e-l-a-t-e-d-h-a-p-p-y-v-a-l-e-n-t-i-n-e-s-t-o-y-o-u-t-o-o...is only 18 words longer than t-h-e-s-a-m-e-t-o-y-o-u...it doesnt even take a minute to type the whole thing. then again, were not close friends anyway, why do i even expect him to go through such trouble of writing a 6 word sentence, right? *sigh*
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(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
|How to make a Falling Star|
1/2 cup of naivety
3/4 cup of laughter
1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!*
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...