yesterday was day two. yesterday was superfun.
first, i was allowed to miss my seminar class, thanks to my acting ability...my almost-perfect skill in faking sickness.^_^. second, i found out wenwen didnt have to go home to china soon. ^_^. and after suidobashi (my i-dont-wanna-be-there-coz-it-means-boring-school), i went for a really long walk to the park, really long talk, and ice cream on the way with clairy fairy (had three ice creams today!!!).
we climbed four trees at yoyogi park!!! (well just three, coz the last tree we climbed with miryll was the same tree we climbed first). While we were up there, we had lots of laugh and stories, did some work (claire reviewed her kanji, while i read the da vinci code), wrote our names on our tree, and we even sang (if you can call it that). on our first tree, we were told off by the security guards. they didnt really look serious and scary, so we just pretended we were going down but stayed there when they were already out of sight. actually we didnt really have much choice but stay there longer coz it took us forever going down! its just no one was down there to catch us when we fall and its so scary the ground looked really hard.
after we were told to go down that tree, we went to climb two other trees and even came back to our original tree with miryll...eeRrr, well i dont remember the security guards saying we couldnt come back and climb again after going down..^_* they should have been more specific ^_*. it was really soOo much fun. too bad no one brought a camera. there was this western guy who took a picture of us while we were up there...he didnt even ask permission!! we wouldnt have mind..well just ask him to send it to us through email-->but NO!! that bitch!!
and the day didnt end there, i watched this scary movie (hide and seek) while having dinner with claire, pei, and this koreans who kept turning the volume down. i swear i was thisclose to grabbing that remote from her or just shout in her face "ive had enough of you lady!!! i can tolerate you turning the volume so low that we cant even make sense of what theyre saying but could you tell me what's the point of watching a scary movie if we cant hear any sound effects? do they have it subtitled in korean too?!!" but then i realized its their movie anyway. huhuhu. but that didnt ruin my day, later that night i went to see a few episodes of friends in pei's room and i reached level 15 of notpron!!! how cool is that?!!!
yesterday was really long.
and being preoccupied with other things is good, keeps you busy so you wont see what's broken for a while.
but i have to face it, dont i? well...okay ill face it. at the moment, its crushing my ego...well, shengwen said that if m.c. likes me he'd tell me too after knowing. but its day three now and we still haven't spoken a word since that conversation. i kept telling myself that not all guys who liked me, i liked back too..so i cant really expect a lot from him, right? but its making me sad. was it my height? my weight? or just me? that he just cant see himself with me? okay i always say i just want to be friends anyway...but ill be a hyprocrite if i say that i am not hurt now that it seems that's really all we could ever be. friends. and he's rarely online now. is he avoiding me? or am i being paranoid? i told miryll that after telling him, i realized i dont want to get to know him more after all. and that's not a lie. but its not because im scared..its because its clear, friends is all we could ever be.
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(hehehehe...in random order...^_^)
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|How to make a Falling Star|
1/2 cup of naivety
3/4 cup of laughter
1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!*
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...