i gave you up today...
i heard the song "ticket to ride" and i felt...that was it. time for goodbye.
no it wasn't really the song...but it said something that kind of hit me in the head..."the boy that's driving me mad is going away....and he dont care."
you see, i guess i really liked you (if a naive-confused-often-times-deranged girl like me could know what LIKE means)...but i just dont like what im going through now. i dont think i can be this cruel to myself. i mean, ive told you i like you..and how many days has it been since? twelve days? i mean if you had liked me...you'd at least show you care for me...message me hello on msn sometimes? or said hello to me when we saw each other for the first time last thursday? but nothing. you dont care. there's not even a single tiny sign you like me. and that makes me feel soOo unlikable that i start to blame myself again. and i just hate having insecurity attacks. its one of the worst feelings ever.
i didnt give up liking you because the feeling stopped, i gave up because i had to. at the point where my hope of someone liking me back as much ends, starts the point where i had to give myself the love others could not give me. i owe myself that.
maybe standford in sex in the city was right...maybe this is just my lifestyle: kl-liking-someone-who-wont-like-her-back lifestyle. it cant be that bad.
Hey Kat, I wanted to comment on ur earlier post but there was some error hence I couldn't comment. Anyway I want you to know that I've felt just like u are feeling now and I'm sure someone right will come along eventually. I mean, God has his plans for you right? You need to know that M.C wasn't God's partner for you and He'll make sure when the right one comes along you'll know it cuz the Holy Spirit's taste(in men for your case) is way better than our own!! So what if he doesn't like you rite? Doesn't mean u're unlikable AT ALL!! So cmon I want you to shape up and cheer up and stop living life in a pessimistic way!!!
^_^ i will be better soon.
By Anonymous, at 11:21 AM
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How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...