Stressing out about your love life (or lack thereof) won't get you anywhere. Do something healthy for your body and keep your mind in the present -- the rest will take care of itself.
how appropriate. that's my horoscope yesterday. ill try not to fret about it, but it just makes me wonder...was there ever an easy way to break somebody's heart?
when i was in high school, there was this guy who liked me very much. he was two years my junior, i was in fourth year while he was still in sophomore. he was funny...but i get really guilty when i think about it. he must have liked me a lot then coz when someone introduced me to him, i was standing there while his friend is gripping his hand coz he was trying to run to the boys' toilet. and then on feb 14th of that year, a friend of him handed me this small box that looked like there's some necklace or something inside and i just stared at it forever so his friend thought that i must have preferred it more that he give it to me himslef than ask his friend. so when his friend left i hurriedly ran to my friends' CAT HQ to hide and used the girl scouts' HQ to get to the choirs' room coz we have a practice that afternoon. after our practice, my friend told me im really mean coz i made the guy wait outside the CAT's HQ for ages thinking i was there inside..and when he realized, it was taking me centuries to get out, he finally knocked and asked if i was there only to find out i wasnt.
in university, there was this guy in my college who i was kind of friends with. being in the same college and batch, we have some classes together. but we became friends because we took the same elective together (filipino psychology) and we were in the same group...we had lots of laugh coz the class was fun and our group get along very well. until one day, he started texting me with seemingly meaningless i-care-for-you-coz-we're-friends messages on my cellphone and i never really mind. then he'd try to walk with me after class so thinking that there's something going on, i would suddenly change my way..like, oh i forgot i need to do something here pala..and then after class one day he asked if i could give him 3 minutes. so i did. and i stood there dumbfounded while he was telling that he likes my sense of humour...that he likes me...dahdahdahdah...and i wanted to tell him, i get it but i think your three minutes is over so can i go now? and i just started giving him a silent treatment. id pretend nothing happened or i didnt hear anything and i would ignore him. there was a time when he wanted to explain it to me again but i wouldnt hear any of it so i kept on walking while he was following me and when we reached this caf near the psych college (was i here THAT LONG already that i cant remember the name of that caf?!) i finally stopped and faced him and covered my ears while he was talking. we even had a fight over our last group project in psych coz at almost the last minute he wanted to back out from acting as tita charo in our mini-play and it just annoyed me soo much coz i made the script and all and there were not enough people in our group to play his part. but i was really just being mean to him. i feel really bitchy. i was bitchy, wasnt i?
and just a few years ago, there's a guy in my community youth org who liked me. i really like him too..but only as a friend. last last christmas he gave me a necklace, and i gave him this mini gadget you can take with you and play anywhere..but that's about all i can give him...and my frienship, if he still likes it. he told me he loves me. but just what does that mean?! i told him that couldnt be true coz he hardly even know me. you cant possibly love that easy?! but as much as i dont want to upset him coz i like him as a friend...i, ah...i said no.
the guy from high school..they even said we look okay together. maputi, chinito, cute, taller than me but not too tall...torpe, if i may add. but back then i was soOo infatuated with this guy (also a sophomore) that i see no one else but him. and the guy from my college....i dont know, i really feel i owe him an apology. but i was really really still immature then. i remember i was praying to God for that something wonderful to come and then...pooof! he confessed. i was really really afraid that he might be what GOd intended for me and i just couldnt imagine being with him. so to change my fate i avoided him as much as i could...but that was a really foolish and childish thing to do...not to mention bitchy. but i was still very young then..and i thought running or avoiding someone was an okay thing to do...
life does have a way of playing tricks on you. those guys liking me, me liking m.c. and etc., and these m.c. and etc. not liking me (or liking someone else)...
if m.c. breaks my heart, i deserve it.
and it looks like he will.
i only said i like him...i didnt ask him to like me back at all. but though im not expecting anything from him...somehow, you cant help but hope he'll say smoething more than just a thank you. but he wont. im sure he wont. and it might be because i have a really terrible hair or somethings seriously unproportional with my face...or simply because he only sees me as a friend...and nothing more than that. he could avoid me, or pretend nothing happened (that he didnt know a thing, like everything's normal again), or he could pretend he wants to be friends with me (that it was alright)...but none of those ways would give me that something wonderful i was waiting for for ages...all those ways, would break me. inside id still be hurt.
oh m.c. if you must break my heart, please do it so gently.
please tell me who this econ guy is... :) i promise i won't tell... :)
--Katiekate
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How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...