"does he hear my heart screaming his name? sometimes it's so loud i think that the gods can hear my pain"...so goes josie reciting shakespeare in never been kissed.
i would always say that if there's one thing i learned from the many times i got my heart crushed it would be that, we oftentimes underestimate the capacity of our hearts by worrying about when our hearts will be cured or if they can ever be mended again, when in fact hearts can heal faster than we think they could. but i realized just now, that when hearts heal--they get tougher too. it is a bit scary coz the tougher it gets, the less faith it has in love. so please hurry my someone before i lose all the faith i still have left in love.
"when i finally get kissed, i'll know...when you kiss someone, everything around you becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that youre supposed to kiss for the rest of your life and for one moment, you get this amazing gift and you wanna laugh and you wanna cry coz you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it'll go away all at the same time." and josie got that kiss after years of waiting.
i just wish something wonderful happens to me too. it is a miracle in itself if you get to meet someone who looks at you with the same admiration and endearment you have when you look back in that person's eyes. that miracle has yet to happen to me.
i get jealous with people who get to meet that miracle...some lasts, some doesnt but gets to encounter one miracle after another. i really just wanna know how it feels. is that too much to ask for?
i dont have to wait. i can always walk up to some random guy i have liked a lot at some point and maybe one or two of them would even be grateful i confessed. i could do that, but i wont. i get tired of waiting(you'd know how it feels if youre one of the josies of the world),...but i'd rather wait than kiss a jerk who only realized my worth after i was brave enough to admit my feelings to him. i dont really know what it is...maybe im just trying to defend my being a scaredy-cat in letting a guy in on my feelings...or maybe i just love my self too much to think i deserve more than a jerk like that.
just like what josie said the right guy is out there. my right guy is out there and he's someone who wont leave the job of "confessing first" to me, because he can see me as someone worth taking a risk for. and i am not going to kiss a bunch of jerks just to get to him.
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How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...