i did a really stupidly embarrassing thing a while ago. i messaged him (but thas not the stupidly embarrassing part just yet)..the conversation went on like this...
me: signing online without even saying hello *that icon with a rolling eyes*. hehehe. just kidding. *smile* ohayou.
~~eerrr..it makes me sad just remembering it..huhuhuhu..but okay..ill go on~~
him: hehe
him: *big smile icon*
him: ohayou
him: anti-love?
~~explanation: coz my msn screename was about that me going anti-love blah blah. okay now back to conversation~~
me: hai
me: because love just gives you a headache
him: hehe
him: true
me: guys get headaches too? but that's a girl's job..to get headaches, that is *rolling eyes icon*
him: depends on the person
now this is where the embarrassing part comes in..miryll signed in and i told im trying to chat with him now but that i dont know what to say anymore..so she asked what we were talking about..so i copied our conversation and was going to send it to miryll, and i did...at least for a few seconds there i thought i sent it to her until i realized that the picture on the conversation box i pasted it and sent it wasn't miryll's but him!!!right then and there i wish i died. panic to the Nth level!!!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh. you cant imagine how worried i was!!! i told him it was a wrong sent plus i said i shouldnt have send that. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. it was really embarrassing!!! i almost died. and i did, for a few minutes, that is.
i should be calmed down by now. i was also chatting with kelly and miryll..and i was adviced to breathe, relax, breathe more and was told that everything happens for a reason, that it wasnt that bad, that everyone makes mistakes, that im being irrationally worried over what he might be thinking, and was also told that he probably wondered about it for a few minutes and then forgot all about it. *i just died again* its so unfair. he probably did just think about it for a few minutes and went on to other more important thoughts WHILE its making me worried to death. im crazy and its all his fault. deep like sucks. its supposed to be just m.c. for minor crush...why am i so illogically worried? i want to fade.
sana nagpalusot ka na lang hihi... like it wasn't missent or anything... hihi. "why am i so illogically worried?" that's 'cause you like him. if you love him you wouldn't care how stupid you're acting. dunno, that's what I think... miss you lots!
-Katiekate
By Anonymous, at 1:57 PM
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How to make a Falling Star |
Ingredients: 1/2 cup of naivety 3/4 cup of laughter 1/4 cup & 1 tsp. of insecurity |
Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness. Sprinkle a bit of craziness (it's not complete without that!). Serve chilled with a smile. And recently, i discovered that if you add a pinch of faith, it'll be a lot better. Yum!*Do not overindulge!* |
When i lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that i loved you but you will never be loved again the way that i did...
everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, failures, love lost, memories of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of one's soul. without the small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. it would be safe and comfortable but uttery pointless...
do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, it is because we are different that each of us is special...
do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. by living your life, one day at a time, you live all the days of your life...
do not be afraid to encounter risks, it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave...
do not run through life so fast that you forget, not only where you have been, but also where you are going...
Humankind get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...
We cannot make anyone love us. All we can do is let ourselves be loved.
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
"This is courage...to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
The hardest thing to do is to watch someone you love, love someone else.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then its not the end.
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible...
Its amazing the things you realize when you lose someone; you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for grantd the days doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken at anytime in our lives, but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along...
in the movie "in the mood for love," if someone had a secret they didnt want to share, they go up to a mountain, find a tree, carve a hole in it and whisper the secret into the hole...then they cover it with mud, leaving the secret there forever...
this is my hole...